Giving a "hot mess" a whole new meaning...

I am a hot mess; instead of the hot part just think mess.
Boys, let this be your warning - read no further.
So AF came for her first visit post baby - can I just say fucking sick. I guess it's bullshit that it doesn't come until after you finish breastfeeding.
I feel like a teenager...at least I might lose a few pounds given the amount of blood I'm losing. LOL - ewwwwwwwww.....
Today has been one of the grossest days of my life....I "leaked" (think undies, sheet and mattress pad). I cleaned it all up, including myself at 6 a.m. this morning and then baby wakes up at 6:30 (slept through the night) and what happens? My boobs start leaking - yep, that's right. I soaking wet skin coloured nursing bra.
LOL - ewwwwwwwww.....
Now do you see why I feel so sicko? Why is the female body so messed up?
Ugh.
Hahaha - I can't believe I'm about to post this.
I guess giving birth really does make you think anything else is for public consumption.
Bahahahaha.

Can I just say LOVE?

I mean like fullout, hardcore, never ending, enveloping love - a love that even those words which I picked very carefully can't describe!

6 months is by far my favourite age - we've got a SMILER (if he's not going down for a nap), a belly laugher, a sit-on-my-own'er, a joker, a mimic, a wiggler (attempting to crawl), a consistent napper (even if it's not for long I know what to expect), a bath lover and most importantly a shining personality!!

This little guy has charisma - he is a lady killer. In this outfit he might look like he's a real killer (looking a little jailbird like) but that's not the kind I'm talking about (insert ear to ear grin). He knows when someone is joking around - he loves it when I raise my eyebrows or give him a "what's going on here" look (think one eyebrow down and one up).

I am so excited to see him when he's bigger!! I mean, I know he's going to be fabulous - the last month has shown me that but oh my, this is going to be great!!